Pengalaman Model United Nation Pertamaku

Ikutan Model United Nation adalah mimpiku sejak SMP, meskipun keinginan itu hanya berdasarkan gengsi semata dan aku ga begitu mengerti apa sebetulnya yang dilakukan selama kegiatan itu. Pokoknya setiap kali melihat beberapa orang yang kukenal di medsos sedang flexing megang plakat MUN, pakai jas rapi, duduk di aula luxurious: they all looked really fancy. Baru setelah kuliah aku tahu kalau ikut MUN itu bukan hanya tentang keren-kerenan berlagak ala diplomat, tapi kita sebagai peserta harus punya skill debat, pidato, negosiasi, menulis, dan kepempinan yang bagus agar diakui sebegai delegasi yang baik dan dapat penghargaan seperti Best Delegate, Honorable Mention, dll. Kalaupun merasa ga punya skills yang aku sebutkan di atas, ternyata boleh-boleh aja ikut. Resikonya hanyalah ga dapet penghargaan aja, so it’s pretty much a nothing-to-lose situation, at least for me.

JAVA MUN delegates after closing ceremony

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What is it Like Being A ‘Maba’: An Honest Observation

What Is it like being a 'maba'

This morning I woke up and spent some good reflective minutes thinking about how these past two month after I got accepted to unpad had treated me and what I feel about it. This surely has been an emotional roller-coaster; dense-but-loose bag of lessons; a good-yet-dissapointing kickstart that I may regret later in life. Things are not working as I imagined them to be, I get worn out so easily; which is apparently explainable given that this whole uni activities are hella hectic; something that I don’t used to went through in my homeschooling years.

What was hard is figured out that I’m not the smartest person in the room; I more often that not am just an average. Some of my friends appear to be very passionate (to join heaps of organisations and extracurricular units at the same time), brave (to raise their hand, to lead a project, to speak up in front of the class), and keen-witted individuals. I am not, very far away from that.

I also recently just experienced my first failure in my uni life; I got rejected from joining unpad’s English Speaking Union, yeay! Though I wholeheartedly believe that this is just a smaller-sized success that help me to learn, I couldn’t help but crying my heart out; it did make my day gone blue. I even put a long ass time to think about what did I do wrong in the interview; am I that bad and uncapable? Yes, there you go all the self-doubts and whatnot.

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What happens when we don’t care about having a career

What Is it like being a 'maba'(1)

As I finished my high school diploma and getting ready to pursue a bachelor’s degree in political science, I encounter quite a large number of people in my age being abudantly worried and confused of which college major is worth to choose and eventually choose certain major based on job prospects. While I understand where this consternation comes from, given the fact that we need to earn a decent income to live comfortably and to survive in this crazy world, I’d argue that this mindset is not best one to embrace, at least for me.

For one thing, choosing a college major based on future job outlook tends to be quite stressful. Pursuing fancy majors and therefore having ‘respected’ jobs and good money, the idea that the society dictated us to have, is what I think as one of the reason to why depression has surged to epidemic levels in recent decades as it has impacted millions of people. In the midst of complexities of modern life, with all its pressure, many people see life as a showroom, where your job and status define your worth as human being. I see this as a societal/psychological challenge we have to tackle for the better future.

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An Abstract Feeling and Sensation: “The Sublime”

There was this ineffable, weird, ambiguous, and hazy sensation that I’ve been experiencing for the past 5 years, probably it was after puberty hit me, and I definitely thought myself insane as I was quite sure that nobody would feel this particular sensation like I was. This strange temporary sensation enters my mind whenever I went traveling and having to see a row of great mountains of Alborz, the tropical landscape in Lombok, watching the vast night sky from my house’s attic window and million of stars that are moving at a million miles a day, huge skyscrapers in a city or whenever I’m watching some cinematic nature videos that’s showing the splendid and grandeur of god’s creations that beyond all the possibility of calculation or imitation. I get this feeling even more tensely when I think of the galaxies in our universe, how it can be so huge to the point where humans didn’t discover all of it yet.

It made me feel that my existence, human activities and interaction, are so insignificant as all of this big things around us would keep turning, moving, and existing even without us here.

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Food For Thought #1: Neuro-Semantics

Tulisan di blog ini memang ngalor-ngidul. Aku ingat tulisan pertamaku betopik psikologi remaja. Lalu tiba-tiba loncat ke matematika, seni, sains, jurnalisme, politik, jurnal jalan-jalan, review buku,  filsafat, dan musik. Dan sekarang, aku menulis satu topik yang baru lagi: Neuro-Semantics. Jadi, tanggal 7 April lalu, aku ikut acara pelatihan Neuro-Semantics++ (plus plus). Instruktur (coach)-nya bernama Prasetya M. Brata. Semuanya materinya deep dan memprovokasi pikiran. Saking banyaknya yang kupelajari selama dua hari pelatihan, aku sampai kepayahan untuk menuangkannya ke dalam tulisan ini secara sistematis. Karena itu, aku akan membuat tulisan berseri tentang topik ini, yaitu Seri Food For Thought.

Jujur saja, memahami ilmu Neuro-Semantics itu betul-betul mengubah cara pikirku terhadap segala masalah di kehidupanku sehari-hari. Hidup itu terasa lebih ringan. Tapi, tentu saja tidak semua materi sudah bisa kuinternalisasi, karena semuanya butuh latihan. Jadi, aku harap tulisan ini selain membantu para pembaca sekalian, dapat juga menjadi pengingat buatku agar memaksimalkan pengaplikasian ilmu-ilmu ini dalam hidupku sendiri.

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Ujian ABRSM, And Some Powerful Lessons I Learned On Music Mastery

Setelah satu tahun yang penuh (well, not literally) dengan latihan, les, diskusi, tes di depan guru di tempat kursusku Swaraharmony, akhirnya pada bulan Maret ini aku ikut ujian ABRSM kelas akhir, yaitu grade 8. ABRSM adalah ujian musik bersertifikat internasional, dan instrumen yang kumainkan untuk ujian ini adalah biola. Aku sendiri sebelumnya tidak menyangka bahwa persiapan ujian ini akan seberat, sepusing, dan secapek ini. Karena, musik, seperti halnya ilmu-ilmu lain, butuh pemahaman dan kemampuan berpikir ‘beyond’ jika sudah menanjak ke kelas profesional.

Satu hal yang disalahpahami olehku sebelumnya (dan orang-orang awam lainnya) adalah bahwa bermain musik hanyalah soal bermain nada dan irama tertentu dengan benar. Padahal, jika dilihat secara keseluruhan, musik itu pada dasarnya media penyampaian cerita dan pesan lewat suara. Sama seperti penyampaian cerita di novel (lewat kata-kata), atau lukisan (lewat garis dan warna-warna).

Sepanjang sejarah, orang-orang menciptakan dan memainkan musik untuk menyampaikan pesan-pesan tertentu. Dulu, para budak di Amerika menyanyikan lagu ketika mereka dipaksa bekerja di perkebunan yang panas. Lagu-lagu tersebut memberikan mereka harapan bahwa suatu hari mereka akan bangkit melawan penindasan.

Di negara tertentu, ketika terjadi krisis, para musisi daerah memainkan lagu untuk mengkritik pemerintah, untuk membangkitkan kesadaran masyarakat, dan menyuarakan aspirasi mereka yang tak terdengar. Ingat Iwan Fals? Yes, that’s what he did ketika negara kita terkena krisis ekonomi di era Seoharto.

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Tayang Perdana Filmku: ‘Menjadi Pandu Ibuku’

Beberapa minggu yang lalu, pemimpin redaksi KabarKampus.com, Om Furqan, menawarkan agar filmku yang berjudul “Menjadi Pandu Ibuku” tentang petani Kendeng di-screening di Kafe Kaka, Bandung dan didiskusikan dengan pelajar-pelajar SMA yang tergabung dalam Future Club. Aku jadi nervous, karena aku tahu filmku ini kalah lomba tingkat SMA dan rasanya ga layak ditonton orang banyak. Tapi, atas dorongan Mama, aku pun menyiapkan diri.

Hari Jumat lalu (29/9), pagi-pagi sebelum berangkat ke tempat acara, aku ngebut selesain editing film yang masih banyak kekurangan itu. Tukang bangunan mondar-mandir ngecat rumah, mama-papa bolak-balik belanja keperluan, Reza tidur karena sakit, jadi aku sendirian di ruang tamu ngutak-ngatik laptop di atas karpet, berharap film-nya turn out good dan neat. Fiuh, lumayan bikin stres, padahal jam 1 siang aku harus sudah berangkat.

Aku dan mama berangkat pakai kereta. Sesampainya di Kafe Kaka, ternyata beberapa ortu Homeschooling teman Mama sudah datang, dan beberapa teman-teman HS.

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